i just wanna say: i MISS YOU...

"day 7"
YOU keep appears in my mind!!!!
YOU call me to forget bout YOU.......
but i can't....
tis's hard!!!
i can't forget bout YOU ok?!
open ur eye big big & see wat i'm writing...
i can't forget bout YOU!!!!!
tat's all....
everytime when YOU appears in my mind,
i just cant stand for it,
i feel like wanna cry....
but i must be tough........
coz this 1 year time is the longest & toughest year for me....
i must be tough like a rock,
coz i'm looking forward wat'll happen after 1 year,
although i oled can predict that bad things will be happen....
but i kinda excited,
i wanna know wat'll happens after 1 year....
so i must survive till next year 28th June ....
haih....
hopefully good things will happens^^
anywhere i still believe....
I'll Redeem Back Our Relationship^^
i dowan to cheat myself anymore...
everytime i wan to YU to find a bf,
but actually i love YOU....
coz i dowan to see YOU so suffer,
coz both of us are born in different country....
but i have changed my mind,
i'm started to think positive...
I STILL BELIEVE!!!!
^^

YOU are fine!!! Thanks GOD^^

day 6,
finally i receive a message from YOUR best fren(Crystal),
she told me tat YOU are fine!!!!!
oh...
thanks GOD....
i'm so happy rite now,
at least i know YOUR status is fine in Canada there now....
oh yea...
yesterday i forgot to tell YOU y i put "piano" in my movie poster,
it's very simple because u LOVE to play piano...
YOU piano the most if compare with others rite??^^
today i submit this movie poster to my lecturer to check it out,
she said NOT BAD!!!!
but.....
the colour is too bright!!!!
but i think it's nice,
cause i apply this type of colour brightness is to send the message to all of u tat this is a "SAD LOVE movie"....
i think i can feel tat sad mood there.....
& the font got problem=.=
ok....
tis 1 i agree.....
but RED colour represent LOVE!!!!!
any others colours can relief to RED colour???
i know red colour does not match to my image colour...
is ok,
nvm.....
i'll do more research on it...
but i think i did a great job on it!!!!!!
erm.....
the most important is stil YOU!!!!
yea...
is YOU!!!!!
wat is YOUR opinion???
nice???
haih....
i know YOU wont give the answer,
cause YOU dono tat i have a new blog=.=
nvm is ok......
as least i know tat YOU are fine now,
i'll be very happy oled...
YOU happy,
i happy^^
thanks GOD^^

are YOU fine there???

" Day5 "
how are YOU there?
how is YOUR healthiness there?
got people bully YOU?
oh yea....
the most important,
how is YOUR studies there???!!!
i wonder whether u still can concentrate in YOUR studies or not since we nvr chat for few days oled...
YOU still remember me???
hahaha....
what a funny question?!
i guess YOUR status is kinda good there,
cause i know YOU got on9 recently,
but YOU appears off9...
&
i saw YOU have changed YOUR msn display into me,
izzit???
i'm not so sure...
oh yea...
i done my movie poster assignments,
haha...
i used 2 days to done...
the title is..
"The Promised Of Love"
the reason y i put tis is because we have promised to each other that we wont chat again in tis 1 year time,
then tis movie will be coming soon in cinema at "28th June 2010"...
cause tis's the date we'll back and chat again...
hopefully YOU still remember in that time^^
i was trying so hard to think positive oled...
i call YOU to find a "bf" there,
but actually i was lying to myself....
actually....
actually i wan YOU to back to my side....
haih...
but everyting is oled set up by GOD,
it's FATE......
but i still believe good things will happen after 1 year(although the percentage is kinda low)
but 1 things can be very sure is YOU'll always be in my heart,
YOU wont disappear in my HEART,
EVEN if u found a bf....
oh yea....
y i put "CLOUD"?
it's very simple,
cause YOUR name is CLOUD^^
then y i put birds???
as YOU can see the birds flying high there,
it represent FREEDOM...
it means that we'll be free for 1 year time....
we'll be vry freedom like those birds,
cause we oled make a promised that wont chat for 1 year....
then y my movie poster got those paddy???
this brought the meaning that although we are freedom like those birds in this 1 year time....
but it doesn't means that we no nid to do any plan or any decision in this 1 year time...
we must think carefully....
wat we should do??
tis time we must carefull for our decision....
we must be very steady for our choosen this time,
whether we should be together again or???
anyway the result will just like those "paddy" grew thrivily....
many things will comes out from in our mind...
and the post...
y i post like tat??
y i looking up???
very obvious,
cause....
I MISS YOU so MUCH!!!!!
tat's all...
i'll waiting for YOU.....

my TEARS falling down again....coz i MISS "YOU" so much....

today is only day 4=.=
my tears falling down again.....
i was telling the stories between us to my fren,
and i cant control myself tis time....
my tears.....
falling down to my chin....
i just cant stop to thinking of YOU....
erm....
i really miss YOU,
YOU never on9 recently...
i very worry bout YOU,
seriously....
coz YOU told me 1 last thing before YOU end up the conversation with me:
tat YOU'll commit "suicide"....
WTF?!
YOU better don't do tis......
i was worry bout YOU...
at least u show up YOUR present in YOUR msn.....
where have YOU been recently???
wat YOU're doing recently???
are u fine there???
how is ur study???
below is the "I MISS YOU" poem tat i made myself for YOU:
without "YOU" my life is so meaningless,
without "YOU" i don have a good night sleep for every single night,
without "YOU" i can't concentrate in my studies,
without "YOU" it's like i lose a light cause nothing can lead me to the right way,
without "YOU" it's like "no music no life",
without "YOU" i'm a Mr.Lonely....
i miss YOU so much....
i don't know wat is YOUR situation in Canada there now.....
GOD...
YOU must take care of HER,
i would rather sacrifice myself once again....
YOU can cut off my life or watever,
as long as SHE's safe & healthy there.....
thx GOD....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to YOU!!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU......
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.......
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...........
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ,
"CLOUD"

陈凯琦.....

wish YOU all the best in CANADA there....
haih....
today is just a day 3,
we still got a long long way to go until 28th June 2010.....T.T
i miss YOU,
i can't control my hands to open ur MSN chat box,
but luckily i can control not to chat with YOU....
i RESPECT YOUR option,
i wish that this 1 year time will pass very fast,
of course i wish that good things will happen in 28th June 2010....
erm....
mayb we meet up????
can celebrate YOUR 20years old birthday???
haih.....
many things will happens in this 1 year time...
i can predict that BAD things will happens more than GOOD things....
Below is the "LOVE" poem that i want to present to YOU,
hope YOU like it:
things may come,
things may go,
but my LOVE to YOU,
will "FOREVER REMAIN",
YOU're my ANGEL my BABY,
YOU may not know this,
and if I could,
i'll go & find YOU instead of let YOU come & find me,
YOU're the air that i FOREVER BREATHE,
My LOVE won't ever change,
i LOVE YOU baby,
I MISS YOU baby,
YOU'll always deserve the 1st class in my HEART....
anywhere wish YOU all the best in CANADA there,
just concentrate in YOUR studies,
YOU can do it....
& if YOU can...
if YOU can.....
just find a BF there,course YOU'll be living there long term...
but make sure find a good BF^^
if YOU think that forget bout me is the good way to cheer up YOUR life,
then YOU just go ahead....
is ok....
just left me alone here^^
PEACE....

The "BADDEST" day ever in my Life......

Just the day 2 after "King Of Pop"-Michael Jackson passed away,
Just 1 day away from my "DEAR" birthday-29th June....
then it turns to my baddest day ever.....T.T
the story begins with:......
erm.....
SHE's canadian,
SHE studied in Malaysia for more than 9years before....
erm......
SHE fall in love to me...
& our love started....
SHE touched me a lot,a lot...
the "a lot" here is uncountable....
SHE promised me tat SHE'll be back on tis year November,
& of coz i'll wait for her...
SHE's trying to give me a surprise by back to malaysia before her birthday,
coz she hope that can celebrate HER birthday with me....
HER fren "Crystal" told me,
erm.....
i'm so touched by her action...
& then bad things happens,
SHE argued with her parents,
coz she wants to back here before her birthday so badly....
& her parents opposed....
SHE damn sad,
& SHE cried like hell....
HER frend told me tat HER eyes damn Red,
coz she cried for streak few days....
after i heard tis,
my tears.....
falling down.......
it's so damn touched.....
tis's last monday messages tat i get.....
Yesterday,28th June....
Yesterday.....
can be consider as a "BADDEST" day ever in my life....
8:30pm,28th June...
Me & "DEAR".....
nope....
i shouldn't call "HER" DEAR anymore,coz SHE'll be vry sad....
me & HER started to chat,
we chat a lot....
SHE told me that she cant forget me....
SHE keep blaming herself for cant bek to malaysia....
erm....
at first....
i got confident tat we'll meet up again...
i still believe....
but now...
it seems like....
it's over.....
it's done....
coz SHE choose an option tat we stop chatting for a year,
tat means we'll be chat again 28th June 2010....
men,it's so DAMN long....
i sure i'll MISS HER so much!!!!!
since tis's HER option,
of coz i'll respect & accept it....
erm.....
SHE cant concentrate in HER studies @ canada there,
is bcoz of me,
coz SHE keep thinking and worry bout me.....
erm.....
i guess tis's a good way to overcome our problem....
anywhere i rather sacrifice myself to let her concentrate HER studies over there...
1 year....
1 year.............
it's so DAMN long....
many things can be happens in 1 year time....
28th June 2010,
i oled sem 7 in my diploma interactive design course...
wat else....????
i oled 20years old(if count in my birthday date).....
i started to think negative...
erm....
mayb SHE have found a new bf....
mayb SHE forgot who am i.............
i guess bad things will be happens more than good things.....
but i think i'll still remember her....
i wont find a gf,
unless i found out tat SHE got a good bf....
anywhere SHE's still deserve the 1st class in my heart....
i force myself not to open her msn chat box,
but i can't.....
i just open it justnow morning....
coz i leave a message by wishing her HAPPY BIRTHDAY....
i cried for an hour last nite,
i can't sleep well the whole nite long...
i cried,
my tears falling down,
when i staring at HER photos....
i got an "movie poster" project in my hands now,
at 1st,
i wan to do a action type of movie poster,
& it's oled done....
but i gonna change now.....
i wanna do a LOVE Movie Poster,
the movie poster will involve me & HER images.....
i still thinking wat title will i put,
and it mostly related to 28th June 2010....
I MISS U......
May GOD BLESS YOU there.....