Neagative mind...=.=

"day 11"
i got a bad feeling & negative which's YOU really trying to forget me=.=
damn....
damn it....
y?
nono...
cannot blame YOU,
is me the 1 who call YOU to forget bout me=.=
haih...
dono how to express out my feeling now......
GOD...
tell me wat shud i do!!!!
wat shud i do now is follow & accept wat have been arranged by GOD,
i'l respect it....
T.T
i know YOU started to forget me,
i started to disappear in ur life....
mayb it'll be good to YOU^^
i rather be sacrifice myself,
as long as it can cheer up YOUR life in canada there....
may FORCE be with YOU^^

YOU all are trying to stay away from me???

"day 10"
y??
y???
y YOU all did tis to me???
i leave a few messages in YOUR fren msn chat box while she's off9,
but she nvr reply....
don u tell me she nvr on9 recently???
&
y YOU nvr on9 recently?
trying to stay away from me???
trying to forget bout me???
ok,fine....
hopefully wat i imagine is false=.=
or YOU are trying to focus on ur studies???
if yes...
then tis's great!!!!
anyway i miss YOU so much,
pls show ur appearance!!!!
arrgghh......
i going to mad soon...!!!!

i must do something....

"day 9"
i think i must do something to avoid our relationship just end it up like this.....
i found that YOU got play messenger,
hahaha...
i just add YOU to my list,
& i found out that YOUR profile picture is me!!!!
so i just update my profile,
my profile pic is YOU!!!!!
oh yea...
we promised that wont chat for 1year,
but i don't think i can do it....
this's serious shit men.....
i don think i can do it....
i just left a message in ur mail box,
i waiting for YOUR reply soon....
the reply is kinda important,
it's almost like our "future",
hahaha.....
anyway i must do something to redeem back our relationship!!!!

i started to think negative again!!!!!

"day 8"
i started to think negative again...T.T
tis 1 year time is really a longest and suffer year for me...
no chat no meet...
haih....
SAD!!!!!
anywhere i wont change my mind ok?!
i can very sure that i'll still love YOU & remember YOU after 1 year,
coz YOU are the 1 who touched me so deep!!!
but...
but i just dono how bout YOU.....
YOU'll still remember me??
YOU'll still love me???
although YOU got a secret love to me 1year b4....
but i dont think YOU'll do the same thing again.....
i can feel that YOUR mind started to change....
i know that me started to disappear in YOUR heart....
haih....
anywhere we shud believe in fate/GOD....
coz GOD is the 1 who arrange all these stuff for us=.=
but i still got bit believe we'll meet up again,
but the percentage really getting lower & lower....
below is the SAD poem:
Nothing ever lasts forever so why promise it?
No one can predict the future, it's hidden
Today is history and tomorrow's a mystery
And in a second, it ALL can become long lost...
but anywhere we nid to be more optimistic^^
i still believe!!!
how bout YOU,CLOUD???!!!!

i just wanna say: i MISS YOU...

"day 7"
YOU keep appears in my mind!!!!
YOU call me to forget bout YOU.......
but i can't....
tis's hard!!!
i can't forget bout YOU ok?!
open ur eye big big & see wat i'm writing...
i can't forget bout YOU!!!!!
tat's all....
everytime when YOU appears in my mind,
i just cant stand for it,
i feel like wanna cry....
but i must be tough........
coz this 1 year time is the longest & toughest year for me....
i must be tough like a rock,
coz i'm looking forward wat'll happen after 1 year,
although i oled can predict that bad things will be happen....
but i kinda excited,
i wanna know wat'll happens after 1 year....
so i must survive till next year 28th June ....
haih....
hopefully good things will happens^^
anywhere i still believe....
I'll Redeem Back Our Relationship^^
i dowan to cheat myself anymore...
everytime i wan to YU to find a bf,
but actually i love YOU....
coz i dowan to see YOU so suffer,
coz both of us are born in different country....
but i have changed my mind,
i'm started to think positive...
I STILL BELIEVE!!!!
^^

YOU are fine!!! Thanks GOD^^

day 6,
finally i receive a message from YOUR best fren(Crystal),
she told me tat YOU are fine!!!!!
oh...
thanks GOD....
i'm so happy rite now,
at least i know YOUR status is fine in Canada there now....
oh yea...
yesterday i forgot to tell YOU y i put "piano" in my movie poster,
it's very simple because u LOVE to play piano...
YOU piano the most if compare with others rite??^^
today i submit this movie poster to my lecturer to check it out,
she said NOT BAD!!!!
but.....
the colour is too bright!!!!
but i think it's nice,
cause i apply this type of colour brightness is to send the message to all of u tat this is a "SAD LOVE movie"....
i think i can feel tat sad mood there.....
& the font got problem=.=
ok....
tis 1 i agree.....
but RED colour represent LOVE!!!!!
any others colours can relief to RED colour???
i know red colour does not match to my image colour...
is ok,
nvm.....
i'll do more research on it...
but i think i did a great job on it!!!!!!
erm.....
the most important is stil YOU!!!!
yea...
is YOU!!!!!
wat is YOUR opinion???
nice???
haih....
i know YOU wont give the answer,
cause YOU dono tat i have a new blog=.=
nvm is ok......
as least i know tat YOU are fine now,
i'll be very happy oled...
YOU happy,
i happy^^
thanks GOD^^

are YOU fine there???

" Day5 "
how are YOU there?
how is YOUR healthiness there?
got people bully YOU?
oh yea....
the most important,
how is YOUR studies there???!!!
i wonder whether u still can concentrate in YOUR studies or not since we nvr chat for few days oled...
YOU still remember me???
hahaha....
what a funny question?!
i guess YOUR status is kinda good there,
cause i know YOU got on9 recently,
but YOU appears off9...
&
i saw YOU have changed YOUR msn display into me,
izzit???
i'm not so sure...
oh yea...
i done my movie poster assignments,
haha...
i used 2 days to done...
the title is..
"The Promised Of Love"
the reason y i put tis is because we have promised to each other that we wont chat again in tis 1 year time,
then tis movie will be coming soon in cinema at "28th June 2010"...
cause tis's the date we'll back and chat again...
hopefully YOU still remember in that time^^
i was trying so hard to think positive oled...
i call YOU to find a "bf" there,
but actually i was lying to myself....
actually....
actually i wan YOU to back to my side....
haih...
but everyting is oled set up by GOD,
it's FATE......
but i still believe good things will happen after 1 year(although the percentage is kinda low)
but 1 things can be very sure is YOU'll always be in my heart,
YOU wont disappear in my HEART,
EVEN if u found a bf....
oh yea....
y i put "CLOUD"?
it's very simple,
cause YOUR name is CLOUD^^
then y i put birds???
as YOU can see the birds flying high there,
it represent FREEDOM...
it means that we'll be free for 1 year time....
we'll be vry freedom like those birds,
cause we oled make a promised that wont chat for 1 year....
then y my movie poster got those paddy???
this brought the meaning that although we are freedom like those birds in this 1 year time....
but it doesn't means that we no nid to do any plan or any decision in this 1 year time...
we must think carefully....
wat we should do??
tis time we must carefull for our decision....
we must be very steady for our choosen this time,
whether we should be together again or???
anyway the result will just like those "paddy" grew thrivily....
many things will comes out from in our mind...
and the post...
y i post like tat??
y i looking up???
very obvious,
cause....
I MISS YOU so MUCH!!!!!
tat's all...
i'll waiting for YOU.....