" MISUNDERSTOOD "

it's an
" misunderstood "
between
" ME & YOU "
...
u know wat i wan from u,
u are the 1 who wan to leave at 1st....
u still remember???
but now u say
i'm the 1 who wan to dumb u???
how come
???
i think u know that
i really really
" LOVE "
you....
without u,
my life stucking,
my life so sucksss.....
my life like lose something....
but...
i tot u the 1 who said
"both of us are different world"
???
rite
???
and i told u 1 last thing last week....
if we got chance,
we sure will meet up again....
but u reply with
" NO "
!!!!
so wat's it mean???
i DAMN blur now......
i need an explanation....
anywhere...
i nid a
"CHAT"
with you....
seriously,
i'll wait for ur appear....
i really wish that things wont go worse...
anywhere i'm FINE now,
&
1 more thing...
i never smoke....
yup...
i never smoke
!!!
don worry
^^
stop crying
!!!!
i'll wait for u....
see you
^^

FEELing Miserable.......

u said u nid my
"CARE"
but bcoz of distance...
i can't provide a good care to u....
i ask u to wait for me,
and actually u ask me to wait for u b4 too.....
but now u oled remorse,
u can't wait for me anymore.....
i ask 1 last chance from u,
but u ignore...
so...
it seems like
"We're only reluctantly being together"
i dowan hurt u anymore....
I’m just scared that I can't withhold my tears

i really wish that i still got chance to
"BE WITH YOU"
but i know it's gonna
"TOUGH"
.....

speechless....

wat to say

???

dono...

got nothing to say...

"tears & mood"

can express out my feeling now...

i'm started to hate

"L.O.V.E"

!!!!!!

plss....

no love again ok?!

=.=

i played 1 quiz yesterday bout my career result,

and my love result oly 40%...

so it means tat i got no fate in love

=.="

i dowan find another lover,

hate

"L.O.V.E"

!!!!

" L.O.V.E "

" L.O.V.E "

i dono how to describe bout

"love"

anyway i try to use these few phrase to describe it,

to emphasize it....

"love" is horror,

"love" is brutal,

"love" is blind,

"love" is irksome,

"love" is an ironic,

"love" is a curse,

"love" is fear,

"love" is a delusion,

"love" is fatal,

"love" is very frenzy,

"love" is so irritable,

"love" is just like a rivalry,

"love" is just like a war,

"love" make people go insane,

"love" make people remorse,

"love" make people became wrath,

"love" make people felt depressed & despair.....

anywhere...

it's hard for me to

" BELIEVE in LOVE"

anymore...

>.<

wont find another lover....

"LOVE"

is so suckSSS

!!!!

it's END

"24th July 2009"

it comes to

"THE END"

i'll remember this date...

finally...

finally u have expressed out ur feeling....

anyway it's great to heard that...

at least...

it's still early yet,

but...

i wan to apologize to u that...

i'm so sorry for wasting ur time,

u court me for up to 1year++.....

we almost get to the deeper level,

but it's too bad..

we can't continue it....

sry...

coz i can't "take care" of u,

really sorry...

u just nid a "care" by me,

but i cant provide it to u....

coz distance really hurt........

sry....

really sorry...

anywhere mayb tis's a arrangement by GOD,

i can't avoid it....

this's the fact,

i must accept it....

tat's it....

i cried the whole nite long,

it's so sad...

but i know this's a good decision...

you did a good job,

we really shud break now....

if not,

u'll be more hurt in the future...

anywhre...

just delete all my photo,

forget bout the past

&

concentrate in ur future....

anywhere...

really sorry for hurted u and wasted ur precious time...

i'm really "reluctant" to leave,

but after u choosed this way...

so i just accept....

i know that...

how much "redemption" i made oso cant hold u bek.....

bcoz of "distance"

i heard ppl said b4....

"if a truth love,they doesnt care bout distance"

"if we are meant to be,& we'll be together again"

but i'm truly understand ur meaning...

i dowan hurt u anymore....

anywhere just ignore my future,

this is my business and not ur business...

just take care of ur own stuff,

don waste ur life...

many guy who is...

better than me,

handsome than me,

cute than me,

got a sweet smile than me....

they are all waiting for u,

they can provide a 24hours "care" to u....

so just be with them....

before we end our conversation yesterday,

and i did said 1 thing...

"if we got chance/fate and we sure will meet up again to continue our LOVE"

but u reply with

"NO!!!!"

start from that moment,

my heart was 100% melt and break....

i cant even think tat u'll said that,

it means u really forget me,

and u are oled 100% lost feeling on me....

maybe..

"smoke" is the oly way can let me go through my future....

anywhere live ur life,

just keep it up ur life...

u can do it...

since u dowan "be with me" if got cance/fate....

so i wont care bout u anymore,and u don care bout me...

we got our own road to go...

since u have choosed this way,

and don felt regret...

i know u wont...

finally i know ur answer,

i got ur answer...

i know wat u thinking bout now,

i realised...

at last,

before i end it up....

i just wan to say,

THANKS for all the nice "memory"...

i'm happy with that..

yes...

i'm crying now...

but mayb tis's the last time i'll cry....

THANKS for given me every nice hope....

u have make up my life,

i felt so confidence to continue living in this world..

seriously....

"before meet you,

it's like i live in a hell which's full with darkness....

but after meet you,

u have cheer up my life....

my life was full wit hope and i'm started to have confidence in myself...."

"bcoz of you"

i got today...

THANKS so much....

i really hope that "i can be wit you"

honestly...

but i know u wont accept me anymore...

so watever,

yup..

i'm really stubborn,

it make my chips become more harder and stronger...

somethimes something that make me get deeper into it,

i'm really hard to give up,

just like the love between me & u....

i hope that everything can restart again,

coz i just wan to "be with you"

but i know u wont accept it...

so

"BYE my DEAR"

cheer up

!!!

u can do it

^^

"goodbye"

"THANKS" for the memory

&

"SORRY" for given u empty stuff

>.<

BYE....

" GOODBYE" ???

i lie down on my bed around 2am yesterday midnite,

but guess wat is the real time i got into my dream......

is around 6am like tis

=.=

y huh???

y like tis???

coz i keep thinking bout u,

i look at ur photo...

and my tears falling down

X.X

i know u oled at ur "home sweet home" now,

but u dowan open ur msn and send a message to me....

u dowan even open ur computer,

coz u dowan to see my face...

tis time u really very struggle to forget me,

ok...

good...

speechless...

yesterday i listen to FM radio station,

listened a few song is bout "love",

and the ending is "sad"...

is mostly all about

"GOODBYE"

=.=

i started to think our future,

and i pretty sure that tis year u bek m'sia is the "last meeting" between us...

i know...

i can't change the fact,

i must force to admit it....

watever....

just dono wat to say

>.<

i know how much the "redemption" i have did oso not enough to secure our "love"

anywhere...

just wait and see the arrangemen from

"GOD"

=.=

Can a heart that's been thoroughly wounded continue to love me???

i just want to say.....

i just want to say.....

" i miss you "

" i was so DAMN worry about you "

" I LOVE you "

these's all wat i want to say to "YOU"

.........

>.<

i treat u like an "angel",

but you treat me like a "stranger"???

y??

i know you oled reach canada,

but y you are so stubborn??

y u dowan send a messages and tell me you are safe now???

are you really want to treat me like this???

i getting stray & stray,

i lost direction...

i'm losing balance...

i'm constantly hovers,

coz i dono wat's ur situation now...

>.<

i'm speechless bcoz of ur attitude to me....

anywhere...

i'll still wait for ur message...

hope that ur situation is fine now,

cheer up

!!!

^^